by - 3:02 PM

Lost In Translation

It's one of the big facts of life: everything changes. The weather, the people around us, our own interests, everything. Without change, life would be boring. There wouldn't be any more new and exciting discoveries, relationships or opportunities.
Still I used to hate change. After all, you know exactly what you have right now, but you don't know what you'll get when and if change comes.
Change used to scare me. Change used to keep me awake at night. But even that is something that changed over time. When my entire life started changing after I'd graduated high school, I began to see the good things change had to offer: new friends, the chance to learn something new, internships abroad.
Change isn't so bad at all, I decided not too long ago. Unless it's being forced on you - and that's exactly what happened to me.
For almost three years I wrote a little blog with a slightly sad name. That blog is no longer around. The URL changed, the design changed and I even chose a new name, something I promised myself I'd never do. I did it anyway, not because I wanted to, but because I had to.

It was back in 2012 that I started blogging. I had no idea what I was doing, to be honest, so I wrote about whatever came to mind. As I was struggling with friendships, family and high school at the time, these were also the themes I used to write most about. And yes, occassionally I'd mention the crush I had at the time. I still suffer from that one mistake.
The girl who made that mistake is long gone. Since I went to Peru I've grown and found the things in life that make me happy - writing a blog among others. But the guy I used to like is still around, jeopardizing my internship. As a soon-to-be high school teacher I have to be careful with Facebook, Twitter and yes, blogs. I thought I was safe, since Envy Fisher is a pen name. I was wrong.
This not-so-nice guy decided to tell his younger brother (whom I might have to teach German at my internship school) about the badly-written blog posts of my early blogging career. Word spreads quickly at any high school and I couldn't risk anyone finding out. And so the day came that I was forced to change everything.

I'd like to tell you how much fun it was to make all these changes - but it wasn't. It almost fell like being forced to amputate your own arm because your fingers itched. That's how much I loved my first blog. I wasn't ready for a new name: coming up with this one took me a few hours and a big Whatsapp brainstorm session with a friend. When I finally came up with Lost in Translation, there was still the problem of finding a URL. I stuck with the theme of translation and translated my new blog's name to Dutch, my first language, for a completely original URL.
At first I wanted to do the design all by myself, but I got stuck underneath an avalanche of homework. Luckily Hello November Designs was around. A short week after I had to say goodbye to my old blog, the new one is here and ready to be awesome.

I can't help but think of Groot when I type this post. It's like the old blog was Groot as everyone knows him. The knew one is tiny Groot, still awesome, but it'll take time to grow and be as strong and cool as it once was. Hope you'll be around to help me get back to where I was.

Stay Awesome!

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  1. I absolutely HATED change before this summer, it usually takes me a long time to get used to change and when I do, it's even harder to get used to new change, so I understand what you mean.
    Also, it sucks when people like that jeopardize one of the things you love the most, just so they have fun. I think I should have kind of a "Fall cleaning" of my blog posts, just in case someone decides to play the blog card in a few years when I'm (hopefully) successful in my job.
    I hope your little Groot becomes as successful as it was before (because I have no doubt in the awesomeness of it). :)

    1. Thank you :) I haven't had much time for little Groot yet, because I was in London, but I hope to get back into things soon. There's still so much to do. I mean, for some reason Bloglovin' doesn't list my blog anymore and when I added it myself, it wouldn't allow updates on the posts page. So weird...
      We're the same when it comes to change, I think.
      I'm going to go through all my blog posts soon and delete everything that comes close to embarrassing. It's a good idea to do that every once in a while. Can you imagine being really successful in your career and then someone finding your blog and some silly post about silly high school drama? I think I'd die of embarrassment XD

    2. I can tell you from experience that it's horrible. xD In 7th grade my music teacher signed me up for a singing competition for kids, and even though my singing was awesome and I won, it was weird when my high school friends found the video still on YouTube after so many years. :D After 7 years and a couple of emails to YouTube, Google and the production company of the TV show I was on I can now proudly say that there's no more awkward stuff of me on the internet. :D

    3. Oh no, you've actually been through that?
      Can't believe how much effort it took to get it offline, but I'm glad for you no one can see your awkward moments anymore.

  2. Change can sometimes be really scary, but at the same time it can be really necessary. I am so sorry about what happened to you with your crush. I don't talk about anyone I know on my blog just to be sure nothing like this happens to me but I am still scared that someone from school might find my blog and take away from the happiness it gives me. I love blogging and if anything happened that made it not fun for me would make me so sad! I hope your blog is filled with success in the future, despite its past!
    xx Brittany -

    1. Thank you so much, Brittany!
      I still talk about people I know on my blog, but only in a positive way. I always tell them and send them a link if they want to read my post. I don't mind my friends knowing about this blog, because I'm actually quite proud of it now. I hope, now I've changed it and everything is finally the way I want it to be, no one will be able to take my blogging happiness away ever again :)

  3. Wow, I had no clue about the other blog you had until now. The story of how you changed blogs is very interesting, tells me that I should be careful with blogging too. Glad you posted this. :)

    1. Glad you liked the post :)
      Don't let this scare you too much, there's a huge story behind this and too much carefulness just makes blogging boring I think.
      The other blog turned out so messy, because I didn't know what to do with it at first. Right now I'm actually glad this happened. It gave me the chance to start with anew, but with my old blog buddies still around :)


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