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Lost in Translation

I am by no means a poet. There was a time when I thought I was one, when I even thought I was a good one. Then I started literature classes in high school and didn't see the difference between great poetry and bad poetry anymore. Now writing poetry is something I like to do when my heart is broken. Lucky for me my heart doesn't get broken every day, but for my poetry it means, well... it means that I don't write very much.

My heart was last broken a year ago. I moved on, but had a few setbacks. During one of those setbacks, I wrote this poem. It lay unfinished on a scrap of paper under my bed, where all my painful personal projects end up at some point, and I only found it when I had to clean my room. I liked it when I found it, but saw it needed some tweeking. You see, in the original version I took the blame for getting my heart broken. The end was extremely sad. I knew I could do better than that. And so, I gave it a shot.

Walk Away


I wish I'd walked
Walked
Walked away

In my mind you were perfection
You were everything to me
Then with one single action
You destroyed our little 'we'
Yet you wouldn't give me the satisfaction
Of walking away to get to be
Away from all the harm and rejection

Let me just walk 
Walk
Walk away

Thousands of memories cloud my mind
They try to drag me back to the past
To back when you were sweet and kind
Yet I don't need you to make this life the best
Nor the memories of how it was all so ill-timed
So I'll shrug and shake it off
I'll leave it all behind

I'll walk
Walk
Walk away
The future lies ahead


I was never meant to be a poet. But at moments like these, I'm glad I can string words together this way. I sincerely hope you enjoyed reading a little bit of my wannabe poetry.

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The fifth task of the Winter Wonderland Challenge was to write about January. I saw the word 'write' and thought: This is right up my alley. But as I picked up my pen, words wouldn't come. At first I was procrastinating a bit and when I gave it a second try, I just didn't get into the zone, if you know what I mean. That's probably because my Grandpa is in hospital, having trouble with keeping his heart beating the way it's supposed to be.
I wrote a poem-ish thing about January. I'd loved it to be better, but it's a small miracle that I could stay concentrated long enough to write this after all that's already happened this week.


Cold January Days

They say you enjoy life most
While walking barefoot
On green Summer grass
When springflowers
Bring color to the world
When raging Autumn storms
Play games with your hair
But I love ice and snow
And only truly feel alive
On cold January days

Summer's warmth is nice
So's Spring's promise of life
And Autumn's colorful time
But nothing melts my icy heart
Like snow on New Year's Day
Turning my whole world white
Nothing can make my frozen lips smile
Like snowmen all 'round town
I feel most alive
On cold January days

When the skating rink closes
And the snowmen go to their snowy heaven
When the resolutions are half-forgotten
And February looms
My icy heart freezes again
And my frozen lips won't smile no more
All through Spring, Summer and Autumn
I'll wait a year to feel
As alive as I feel
On cold January days

I've always liked to pretend I'm an ice queen :P
I feel like I could've done better on this poem, but if I take the circumstances into consideration I think I did well. Speaking of those circumstances: I really can't focus on writing anything at the moment. It might be a while before I write something good again. 
Before my Grandpa had to go to hospital for his heart, I started writing a novel. As you know, I'm fairly insecure about anything I write. So before I start posting a chapter no one is waiting for, I want to know: are you guys interested in me posting half a novel here?

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I've done a lot of tags lately. In my opinion a little too many. After all, this is one of those blogs with random writings that doesn't fit into any of the common blogging categories. So today I'm not doing a tag, I'm not telling more about myself, no, I'm showcasing one of my poems again.

Last month I got positive feedback on something rather long. This month will be different. I wrote this after meeting one of my old friends at the bus stop. From that moment on, I prayed every Tuesday that I'd see him again at the bus stop. Then my timetable changed and... the odds weren't in our favour anymore.
*Note: the poem is inspired by real life, but not autobiographical.

Will you meet me at the bus stop?
A pretentious poem by Envy Fisher

When I met you at the bus stop
It took me a split second
In the blink of an eye
I'd fallen in love with you
Long before the bus arrived

When I met you at the bus stop
I needed no one to tell me
That something between us wasn't right
Still I told you I loved you
Long before the bus arrived

When I met you at the bus stop
I couldn't accept it was over
Until you said your last goodbye
You left me there, heart-broken
Long before the bus arrived

When I didn't meet you at the bus stop
I just sat there and waited
Did nothing but cry
Whispered: 'I miss you'
Long before the bus arrived

Will you meet me at the bus stop?
It won't take long, a minute
Certainly no more than five
We'll talk it through, I promise
Long before the bus arrives

What public transportation can inspire...
I hoped you enjoyed reading this. If you did, I may be posting more of this stuff this month.

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Ever since the Black and White Photo and Writing Contest I've been writing and taking pictures and editing stuff. I love writing poetry just as much as I love writing a novel. The thing is: with a novel I know when my writing is bad. With poetry I don't. But I decided to take a leap of faith and start publishing some poetry here every month. I hope you can relate to some of the things I'll be posting over the next couple of months.


Sometimes doubt creeps up on me
When I think I've done something wrong
Will people look down on me
For something that I've done?

Am I a bad person?
Do I display Greed?
When I see my pay check
And think of how much I still need?

Am I a bad person?
Do I display Pride?
When I walk around after winning a contest
With a smile I just can't hide?

Am I a bad person?
Do I display Envy?
When I cringe as my friend kisses his girlfriend
Right next to me?

Am I a bad person?
 Do I display Lust?
When I hold his hand in the streets
Do you only see a slutty crust?

Am I a bad person?
Do I display Gluttony?
When I see an almost empty package
And decide to eat the last cookie?

Am I a bad person?
Do I display Sloth?
When I take a break after midterms
And do nothing instead of a lot?

Am I a bad person?
Do I display Wrath?
When injustice is done to a friend
Who's never done anything bad?

I look at myself
And see what they can't see
I see the reason why I do what I do
A bad person? That's not me

I am not a bad person
Greed? I'm just thinking about
My uncles in PA whom I promised to visit
But with this little money I can't help but doubt

I am not a bad person
Pride? I've finally found some confidence!
Now that I've found it I want to show it
Doesn't that make sense?

I am not a bad person
Envy? I just show that I care
Because I worry that she'll dump him
Right then and there

I am not a bad person
Lust? I just need to hold on tight
When I'm afraid I'll lose him
Who brought the light in my life

I am not a bad person
Gluttony? I just appreciate my food
And if no one wants that last stale cookie
It doesn't mean it's not good

I am not a bad person
Sloth? We all need a break 
So we have time for ourselves and talk to others
Over a cup of tea and a piece of cake

I am not a bad person
Wrath? If the wrong thing to do
Is standing up for your loved once
I think the real problem here is you!

It's long. It's far from perfect. But I enjoyed writing it. I hope you enjoyed reading.
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