I'm Back Baby!

by - 1:00 PM


Yes, you read that right, I'm officially back! For those of you who've missed me: don't worry, I won't disappear the way I did ever again! For those of you who didn't notice I was gone: I was gone, but now I'm back! Minus a boyfriend, but with a plan for the future and a lot more optimism. Now I'm getting ahead of myself though. Let me fill you in on the details of what happened, where I've been and what's going to happen on Lost in Translation from now on.


January 2017 started and I was excited. 2016 didn't end on the most positive note ever, but I was determined to start 2017 with as much optimism and enthusiasm as possible. I took my blog in a new direction by posting a comic book review. Then one day, as I was preparing my next post, I noticed my blog's header was gone. And some of the follow buttons. And generally every image that made my blog my blog. So I made the whole thing private and spent two weeks being sad and shocked.

What happened to the images, you ask? Well, they were linked to the Google account of the person who'd designed my blog back in 2015. When she deleted said account, all the linked images disappeared and I was left with a bit of a broken blog. Yes, broken, because when I tried to change some small things like font and background color, nothing worked...

At that point in time I simply could have asked my friend Shubhaish, who's in college to become a computer wizard (that's what I call it because I always forget the actual word for it) to help me out and fix stuff. But to be honest, I didn't feel like blogging anyway. When my blog went private, I hoped for it to relaunch on the first of February. January, however, took a dark turn and I ended up crying my eyes out for a solid two weeks. First I was taken aside at internship for my way of working and communicating. Apparently I do these things in such a way that a few people there were starting to wonder if I was gifted. I entered a program in which I will be tested for giftedness and I'm likely to receive therapy for handling my situation, since I am not doing a very good job at it.
Right after I entered this program, my boyfriend and I broke up. With bipolar disorder, depression, OCD, PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder (hope I got that right, sorry Marc if I messed up!) and then also my possible giftedness standing between us, there was no way to make things work at that point in time. Notice how I say 'at that point in time?'. That's my stupid brain being too hopeful as always. Stupid. Anyway, cue the never-ending crying.
So as I was hating myself for having a weird brain and not having a boyfriend, I was also denied permission to study International Communication Skills and I somehow had to pass my finals while going through all this. It did not go well.

Long story short: I hit rock bottom. I didn't want to do anything anymore. I just wanted to drop out of college and stop existing. Every day started and ended with crying. With some more crying in between. Then, one day, I woke up and didn't cry until noon. The next day I only cried at night. A week later I'd gone three days without crying. That's when things got better. I got permission to study at a different college for six months starting September. I finally passed the class that made my life hell in November and December. The teachers at my college were kind enough to let me retake tests I'd failed because of emotional stress. I found a Master's degree on the other side of the country which made me very excited for the future. But best of all: I felt good about my life again. That's when I knew it was time to get back on track with Lost in Translation.

A month later than planned I begged Shubhaish (in a hopefully dignified manner) to help me out. And my god, did he deliver. He took all the broken junk out, started from scratch and gave me this insanely awesome design. He also gave me the best header ever. I mean, look at that thing! So yeah, I'm in love with my new blog. It'll be filled with the things I love once again: comic books, travel, art and as much randomness as possible. Like now, because I have no idea how else to end this post.


So yeah, this might not have been the most cheerful relaunch post ever. Sorry not sorry. Just know that I'm back, better than before. This time I'm not messing about. This time I'm going for blogging gold.

x Envy

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30 Fellow Ramblers

  1. Engineer, Engineer is the word. All I did was install and edit a theme and fix the broken links.

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    1. I agree, computer wizard. Stop trying to fool us muggles. We know who you are and what you can do.

      Also, the blog looks great! Welcome back lol.

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    2. Damn you Enfreeze you blew my cover T-T

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    3. Hope you don't turn into some weird ass aupervillain now that your cover's been blown. Admit it, computer wizard is better than engineer. Especially to us muggles.

      And thanks for welcoming me back Kanra :)

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  2. Glad you're back, look forward to reading new content oh and hi from the chat this week haha.
    Hope March is better for you after a shaky start to 2017!

    The Frugal Teen | http://thefrugalteen.wixsite.com/thefrugalteen

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    1. Thank you! March is still young and I'm not too sure about it, but at least I have a lot of exciting things planned for the next three weeks. And a load of new content of course :)

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  3. So glad to see you back Envy-- I do love the new header :) sorry you had a rough beginning of the year, but I'm glad you were able to find your stride again and keep moving forward! You're awesome girl!
    -Vivian

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    1. Thank you! I only just got back on my feet and I'm not too sure about next week, but I'll find a way to make it all work. I now know what's wrong and what I need to do to fix it, so forward is the only way to go now!

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  4. Wahoooo!!! Welcome back, lady! I'm honestly hyped to see comic book posts from you. Awesome af. 😍✨ I hope your break, despite it kinda being thrust on you, gave you some time to refresh your blogging game. 😘

    Breanna Catharina
    toocuteforlife.com

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    1. Thanks Bre! I've got a comic book review post going online on Monday ;) Also loads of other posts, the break really did give me time to decide on a direction and work on some good content ^-^

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  5. Oh my goodness you've been on a bit of a rollercoaster, haven't you? Well done for coming out of it all the better though! You are so right, that is one good blog header, kudos to Shubhaish for that! On another note, this is a really well written blog post, I feel like I can hear you saying which I love! Keep doing what you're doing! (also, apologies for ending every sentence with an exclamation mark but I felt like they were needed)

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    1. The rollercoaster ride hasn't ended yet though. I'm still dealing with the aftermath of everything, but at least I have had some time to figure things out now.
      Thanks for the compliment and all the exclamation marks, I appreciate them all!

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  6. Yey welcome back
    Not sure whether its my phone but the end of every word is cut off :( x
    Lola Mia // www.lolitabonita.co.uk

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    1. Thank you for welcoming me back and thank you even more for letting me know about the words. I checked it on my phone and it happened there too, so I'll look into it. Thanks for letting me know!

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  7. HA, this is great. I'm a first time visitor but I'm glad your back. WELCOME! I'm sorry for what you've gone through. 2016 wasn't a very good year for me either but there's so much of 2017 left - I'm sure I'll be enjoying more of what you have to share

    ♡ Christine Anne
    A Blueberry Girl

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    1. I'm glad you liked your fisrt visit to me blog! I hope I'll see you around more often :) I feel like most people didn't like 2016. For me it was a great year, until the end... Anyway, it's 2017 now, so I'm going to focus on making this year better than 2016 ever could have been :)

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  8. This is my third time trying to leave a comment for you. I hope this works.

    Welcome back! I experienced something a little similar with my blog earlier this year, I lost all my content but eventually found a way to get them back a few days later. Nightmare!

    Sabah || www.womanishaffairs.org

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    1. It worked! And thank you! I think every blogger's heart has a little standstill when something like this happens. Good thing you got everything back!

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  9. Glad you are back! And stronger than ever. You go girl! 2016 wasn't great for most of us but 2017 is going to be amazing! We'll make it amazing! Can't wait to read more content! xx C&K

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    1. Thank you, I'm so glad to be back! For the first time ever I have things figured out with my blog. I'm really excited to see what 2017 brings from now on ^-^

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  10. It's always a wee bit interesting to see how people outside of the Computer Science/Technology industry view us who are in it. I've never been called a computer wizard before so I chuckled.

    I'm sorry things really hit a low for you. It sucks and I completely understand how that feels. I am, however, glad that you feel comfortable or content enough to openly chat about it. I did the same when I returned back to blogging myself, so I know how intense it can feel. I'm also hoping you feel a bit relieved at having done so.

    And finally, welcome back spring roll! ❤

    mchi | mchiouji — http://blog.mchiouji.me
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    1. A computer wizard you are! The official words are just so lame.

      I've never had a problem with talking about things openly. If I hadn't talked about it, I think the feelings would've been kept inside for too long and eventually I'd have exploded like a volcano of feelings. I cried while writing this post, but it feels good to have it all off my chest and start fresh :)

      And finally, thank you!

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  11. Welcome back :)
    It's great you're doing so much better! I think the beginning of this year was hard for a lot of people.

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    1. Thank you! I have to admit I haven't heard much from others, but that was probably because I became a little sefl-absorbed when everything started to go wrong. I'm glad I'm back now though. I feel like I'll finally be able to make a difference in my own life again :)

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  12. Aaaaaaaaaah welcome back!! I'm glad you're doing better, I always tell myself that everything works out in the end somehow. :)
    Shubhaish did an awesome job designing your blog (I especially love the header) :D

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    1. If we keep telling ourselves that everything works out, we'll eventually find ourselves in a place where it's the truth :)

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  13. Oh, I'm so sorry to hear 2017 has been so tough for you... At least there's hope, I'm sure you'll have a lot of new experiences and adventures doing your Master's, and as a friend of mine says, if you were able to fall in love once, you can do it again, and hopefully you'll have gained some wisdom from the first experience :) Again sorry to hear things went so crappy so fast, but welcome back to blogging, I'm sure things will be better from now on :)

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    1. From now on it can only get better! It's March already, summer vacation will start before I know it and then I can focus on the things I love again.
      I'm sure I'll fall in love again some time, but I'm not sure if the other person will fall in love with me too. This one falling for me was already a bit of a miracle, hahaha.

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