Somebody That I Used To Know

by - 11:35 AM

A few months ago, I wrote these words about the guy who used to be my high school crush. I haven't thought much about him since that post went up. I haven't crossed my fingers since New Year. He never got on my bus anyway. But then, one day, he did.

"Help! Get me out of here!"
All my best friends received an SOS text on a sunny Thursday morning in March. I'd never thought I'd see this guy again onmy way to college. Why did he have to get on my bus on this so-far perfect day?
Panic rushed through my veins. What if he saw me? What if I'd lose my cool? I wanted to get off that bus, but he'd chosen a seat right next to the door. I had nowhere to go... Even though my best friend texted me to forbid me to think about him, I started looking back at the past I'd shared with this guy. At 16, I had the biggest crush of my life on him. He was smart, taller than me, had nice hair and most important of all: he liked Harry Potter just as much as I did. He made me laugh, he comforted me when I cried and if I threw my math book away in frustration he piecked it up and explained it all to me.

I looked at the guy in the seat next to the door. 'Scrawny' was the first word that came to my mind. He used to fill my world with his presence, his laughter could drown out all the noise around us. Now I saw how unfriendly his face looked when he wasn't smiling. He couldn't have been all that tall. I realized I'd probably tower over him in the shoes I was wearing that day. He couldn't fill my world anymore, no matter how hard he'd try. He'd changed, I'd changed. I knew I missed the person he once was, the person who always had my back. That person was long gone though. The guy in the seat next to the door was someone else entirely, someone I didn't know.

The bus arrived at the subway station. I wanted to walk past him and make a big deal out of not noticing him. I looked good that day, and even though it was petty, I wanted to show him I didn't need him to feel good. But he'd disappeared before I got the chance. Now that I look back on that day, I don't mind that I didn't get that chance. After my first few moments of panic, I realized I felt absolutely nothing for this guy anymore. If we'd started a conversation, I wouldn't have known a single thing to tell him. That Gotye song was perfect for the occasion: now you're just somebody that I used to know.
I thought I'd be sad when that statement would become true about him and me. Now I know I'm not. It feels good. 'Cause now I'm finally on my way to better things.

Stay Awesome!

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  1. We'll always go through the stage of seeing someone you used to know. And it's not easy to move on, trust me, but once you get over him or her you'll just feel liberated and relieved :)
    I like how I really related to this post, stay awesome too!
    www.myhopefulpencil.blogspot.com

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    1. It's always nice to hear people say they can relate to my posts :) I know it ain't easy, but getting over someone and realizing you're over that person feels just great/

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  2. I've totally had that looking back on my ex-boyfriend, wondering why I ever liked him in the first place. This is so well written and I love the reference to one of my favorite songs!

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    1. Thank you! It's one of my favorite songs too, it reminds me of high school. I think we all experience this at some point :)

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  3. I can totally relate to this. I used to have the biggest crush on a boy in my school, but now I look back and can't think of what I saw in him. Once I got to know him, he was really immature and a bit rude.
    By the way, I tagged you to do The Text Tag over on my blog. I hope you'll do it! :)
    Little Robin xxx
    littleteensblog.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you for tagging me, it looks fun!
      Too bad the guy was immature and rude, you deserve someone way better than that.

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  4. This was really interesting, being 11 OBVIOUSLY I have never experienced this but this contained a really optimistic.

    By the way, I nominated you for a writing challenge I made up - basically you have to write a story without planning or using the backspace bar. Hope you do it - I love your writing so I'd love to read what you create.

    Full details on my blog:
    whatlexieloves.blogspot.com

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    1. Be glad you haven't experienced it yet ;) It'll happen to you one day and then you'll look back on this comment and think: woah, life was easy back then :P
      Thanks for the nomination, I'll take a look at it as soon as I can :)

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  5. Aw go you! There is nothing like getting over someone and realising you are in control again :D it's so liberating, when you put someone on a pedestal for so long and are suddenly like 'whut'? it's quite magical to love yourself first again! I can really relate, I don't miss the person, I fondly remember the past me that used to be in that situation, it's an experience I'm really glad I had :D lovely blog, I followed you on GFC! xx

    elizabeth ♡ ”Ice Cream” whispers Clara | (doing follow for follow on bloglovin or instagram)

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind comment and follow! You have no idea how much it means to me :)
      I usually miss the person they used to be, but when I remember that this person isn't here anymore and I can move on, it feels like a huge weight is lifted from my shoulders.

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